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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
12 May 2020 @ 05:44 pm
Okay, please keep in mind that I don't actually DO much with a lot of these characters. They just exist for great justice and memes and shit. Some of them are not fully realised because I might not have finished their canons (*coughSandrycough*).

This list organized by fandom, with OCs at the bottom. If the character in question has a journal, it will be listed after their names. Fandom OCs go under their fandom.

If you know of a headvoice I have who is not on this list, please comment to remind me. I'd like to keep this up to date as best I can.

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
19 June 2011 @ 05:14 am
There is a woman I aspire to be. Not the theoretical woman I can maybe be, but an actual woman who I look up to, quietly. Tonight, I went back and read some of her old LJ entries, from 8, 9 years ago, when she was 24 and 25 - my age. Just to see who she was then.

I learned that, like me, she didn't fit in with her family (though she had to deal with more fucked-up shit than I did). That, like me, she never graduated high school. That, like me, she had insecurities and dreams and fears and dreaded spending time with her family sometimes.

We are different women. But gods is it comforting to be able to tell myself - sincerely, for once - that I'm not a failure, or a lost cause, or doomed to work in an adult bookstore for the rest of my life.

I wish I could thank her for posting those posts, and keeping them public, without sounding like a creeper. Ah well, it's probably for the best.

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
11 June 2011 @ 06:15 pm
So, let's pretend I didn't disappear for a year and a half. Please.

Aubrey is starting to really work on some of her stuff again, and that plus seanan_mcguire being amazing and having the second Newsflesh book come out has made me really want to crack down and work on my writing.

Unfortunately, I am low on ideas. The Morani Chronicles (aka Tarotverse) is an interesting concept that I may want to explore or revisit one day, but I really can't get myself interested enough in the characters or the story I had planned. November Skies has never been much other than a vague sense of feeling, and a character. Courser, which I never discussed here, never really got a chance to get off the ground before I lost all my files on it when my old laptop stopped turning on, and I really don't have the interest to rebuild it all.

So I'm stuck with no real inspiration, no characters, a deep love of Newsflesh and a knowledge I'll never write anything quite that amazing, and a lot of frustration.

And a ukulele.

Anyway, I'm trying to discover a character by putting together a playlist, which kicked itself off with Britney Spears' "Womanizer" and Queen's "Fat Bottomed Girls", so I'm not sure how this is going to go. I hold out hope that it will be fruitful, and then I can work on applying Murphy's Law to everything that happened to him/her. (I think it's a her. Her name may be either Hannelore or Sian.)

Let's hope I actually keep up with this journal this time, eh?
 
 
Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
29 May 2011 @ 04:47 pm
So, yeah, I fail at updating this blog. Er. Sorry?

So FOR MY BIRTHDAY last week, my parents got me (drumroll) the boxed set of ALL THREE Extended Edition Lord of the Rings DVDs. :D And watching all the special features (and watching all three films back to back with my grandmother this weekend) has really rekindled my passion for it. I fell out of the fandom mostly when I started having issues with religion and sexuality the summer after I graduated high school, and I never quite made it back, moving forward from fandom to fandom. But to this day, LotR remains the fandom I was involved with the most deeply and the longest, and I've missed it desperately, I've found.

So I've re-begun my scholarship of the Elvish languages and lettering (beginning with Quenya, the older, original version, because that seems like a logical place to start), am planning to use most of my birthday money on books if I can (namely the History of Middle Earth series, but also The Silmarillion, The Unfinished Tales, and The Letters of J.R.R. Tolkien), have re-introduced myself to my old forums, and am generally being a huge geek.

And NOW, after my first plane (all of 30 minutes from Colo Springs to Denver, wtf?), I'm doing research into other aspects of language and writing in Middle Earth, and looking to see if there's a linguistics or medieval studies program at any of the schools near me. XD

Yes, I'm a giant Tolkien geek and I know it.

Anyway, I'm alive, I'm geeking out over Tolkien, and will be home tomorrow morning.

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
06 March 2011 @ 05:36 am
...er, yeah, on reflection, it occurred to me that being sleep deprived AND on crutches is probably not a good idea. So while I'm still definitely determined to shift to a polyphasic schedule, or try to, I'm going to postpone it until I'm actually able to walk on my own reliably. I need that ankle in good working condition, after all.

This is actually very irritating. I'd psyched myself up and everything, and now I'm putting it off. *sigh* Well, maybe I'll be able to add some more things to my "things to do" list to help me stay awake when I do it.

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
Okay, so.

I, as I know a lot of you are, have a really funky sleep schedule. Because my body would rather be UP at night, I often can't fall asleep until late, and I end up spending days in a haze because I'm only getting 4-5 hours of sleep for a night, sometimes for days on end. And I've managed to drag myself through those parts, but I rarely come out of it feeling properly rested.

So, after a lot of reading the past couple days, I'm going to dedicate the next month or two to trying to adapt to a polyphasic sleep schedule.

What the fuck is that, you ask? Well, here's what I'm planning to do: Sleep from 1am-4am every night. Get up, fuck around (or maybe even WRITE, gasp shock awe) until 8, at which point I will crawl back into bed for a 20 minute nap. I will nap for 20 minutes again at 2 (on my lunch hour), and then once more at 9pm. First hand accounts report feeling more rested and energetic, and the extra time to be productive would be nice. I don't foresee as many issues staying awake between naps as some people have reported, if only because I'm a bit more used to operating on very little sleep. My one concern is waking up on time, but I like to think I have the willpower for that if it's important, so long as I have Aub get me up or I set multiple alarms. From all accounts, after a couple of months on a regular schedule, I should find it a lot easier to get up.

So, yeah, I'm embarking on an exercise to see if only sleeping 4 hours of ever 24 might make me a happier, more rested person. Or possibly I will go a bit nutty from short-term sleep deprivation. I guess we'll find out, won't we? Wish me luck!

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
So.

Yesterday (meaning Thursday, since it's only 2am), we decided to do laundry. Well, I decided to do laundry, and Aubrey (to my everlasting gratefulness after the fact) decided to come with me. Now, the reason this was a big deal was that we had to take a probably 30-odd minute hike down the hill to GET to the laundromat, with a heavy bag of laundry on my back. But whatever, it's all good, we're trekking, and within sight of the laundromat parking lot...

When my foot hits the edge of the pavement at just the wrong angle, twists under me, and the full 200+ lbs of me-and-laundry comes down on the side of my ankle.

Cue horrible pain. Seriously, it took everything I had to just turn from hands-and-knees to sitting in the mud while I was sobbing from pain. Poor Aubrey was just trying to get me somewhat coherent and I was mostly just sobbing incoherently because my ankle fucking hurt.

A few members of a local track team (I THINK high school, but possibly from one of the colleges), happened to jog by just about then, apparently. I didn't notice them, all I noticed was suddenly we were surrounded by boys. They were very sweet and flagged down a car going back in the direction of our house, and helped me over to it. The guy I was leaning on was kind of adorably apologetic for being sweaty and smelly - I just said he was helping so I didn't mind. The lady who stopped was also very kind, and helped me get inside after driving us home.

Once I was in bed, we got some ice on it, and I called my friend Laura's mum to see if she could drive us to the convenient care clinic. She did, and was wonderful about it. She got us SUPPER, and took me to the pharmacy afterwards for my pain meds, and got us GROCERIES, and... just was about the next best thing to having my mum actually here.

In the end, it's just a sprain, and I've been kinda drugged up for the past day, so I'm not entirely sure how much it actually hurts. XD I'm on crutches, though, my ankle's still swollen, and getting to work tomorrow is going to be fuuuuuun. -_- I didn't technically have to go in, but I was supposed to be having some training, so I called my photographer in to deal with the customers, and I'm going to sit off on the side with my foot up.

And we STILL don't have any clean laundry.

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
19 January 2011 @ 02:37 am
So apparently there's been ebook piracy wank? Nice roundup here, it's all I've really heard about it, but I wanted to say what I think about it:

I like to support authors I enjoy, and authors I think I might enjoy. Even if the book's crap, the author worked hard on it, and if it were my book, I'd like it if people paid money for my writing.

On the other hand, I can't always afford to buy books, especially when I'm not sure if I'll like the book. I don't download ebooks often, but I have in the past. And if it's that hard for me, what about the people in other countries, developing countries who'd have to pay an arm and a leg and wait for weeks just to get the hard copy. For them, it's really the only logical way to get hold of some books. Sometimes the official ebooks that you pay for aren't available in other countries. Sometimes there just ISN'T an official ebook. Sometimes it has a very specific file format that you need a very specific reader to read.

And, in the end, what I and most writers I know really want is for people to read what we write, and enjoy it. So, y'know, if I ever get published, I'd LIKE it if you paid for the book, but if you can't, it's no big deal. This is me officially saying that you may download my book "unofficially", in the event that a free download is not made available officially (a la [personal profile] copperbadge and Cory Doctrow).

And with that, I wander off to do... something. Maybe play Dragon Age...

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
16 January 2011 @ 09:18 pm
So I was fiddling around with uke chords earlier, and had been looking for Amanda Palmer/Dresden Dolls chords and stumbled across some for Iko Iko. Uh, so... I sort of recorded it.

Iko Iko (Applesauce Cover)

What can I say, I like showing off. ^^;; Enjoy!

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Beka talked like an alien, and it was BRILLIANT
10 January 2011 @ 01:15 pm
Cut for very very frank talk of suicideCollapse )

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